tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46554037967164790592011-12-29T06:13:58.397ZThe revelations of a survivor of childhood abuse. Please be aware that you may find reading this blog to be disturbing if it brings back any of your own bad memories or feelings. If you wish to contact me about anything you have read, or would like to share your experiences or just talk to somebody who understands how you feel then please feel free to email me at survivorblog@hotmail.comSurvivorhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05636534815005744988noreply@blogger.comBlogger61100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4655403796716479059.post-39282694300766663132009-10-29T00:04:00.000Z2009-10-29T00:04:33.701Z

Bad Memory The thing that struck me reading the books I mentioned in my last post is how clearly most people seem to remember their abuse. For me, most memories are vague. This is probably in part due to the years of repression where I didn't accept the memories were there at all, but I am concerned about my memory as I have a lot of trouble remembering things. I don't think I should be so

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Well I've mentioned a little (or rather a lot) about the problems I've had over the years as a result of my past, but I've not really covered the recent issues that lead me to the decision to write this blog and seek help. I think it can really be pinned down to going to the library. Stupid thing really, but hear me out it does make a little sense. I'd been thinking about studying mental health,

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After reading other survivors stories in various books I've come to realise it is only natural for us to end up in abusive relationships sometimes, but not leave them for fear of not having a relationship again or fear of being rejected, or sometimes for fear of the partner themselves. For me, it all started fine. We had a few arguments, and at the beginning I was still going through my turbulent

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I've had a lot of long term psychological issues as a result of the abuse I suffered as a child, some of which have proven very problematic in my life. These below are the ones I have found to have the biggest impact on me over the years. Physical Strength I'm overly physically competitive, and can't accept my own weakness and have become violent when told I am weak. I spent the whole of a

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The mind can be our greatest ally, and our greatest enemy also. Some survivors automatically repress the memory of their experiences as a way of coping, by believing they never happened we are able to move on and go forwards with our lives. Unfortunately we can only bury memories for so long before they resurface. It all started really when I was 16. I'd had a couple of years of blissfully

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Hi. I'm a victim. I was emotionally, physically and sexually abused as a child. Now I'm older and still alive, I guess that makes me a "Survivor" as so many describe it. I'm remaining anonymous, because I wish to protect those who do not know and who it would hurt to find out the darkness I've hidden inside for many years. What I can tell you is that I am 22 years old, female, and live in the UK.

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