Hi. I'm a victim. I was emotionally, physically and sexually abused as a child. Now I'm older and still alive, I guess that makes me a "Survivor" as so many describe it. I'm remaining anonymous, because I wish to protect those who do not know and who it would hurt to find out the darkness I've hidden inside for many years. What I can tell you is that I am 22 years old, female, and live in the UK. I was abused by my half brother from when I was about 9 until I was 14. These are my memories, this is my story. Please be aware that you may find elements of this blog distressing, do not continue to read if you feel overwhelmed by your own feelings or memories.
This is where the healing begins then, or so I've read. I'll admit, I'm sceptical, but I no longer have a choice in seeking help because these problems are beginning to take over my life. In order to help others in their journeys of healing and self discovery, I have chosen to write a blog about my experiences as I learn how to deal with the issues I am having.
I may write regularly, or I may write a huge load in one day then remain silent for a week or so. I'm not really sure yet, because this is only the beginning of something much bigger for me. Please contact me if you would like to discuss anything on this blog, or just want to talk to someone who shares a familiar burden.
Thankyou.
A Survivor.
hello, it appears that you have long ago abandonded this project but i had to say that your anonymous nature makes me uneasy when you attribute it to protecting those who don't know or who might be hurt. Having survived longer than yu have I can say, stop protecting and covering up for other people. i was always concerned with protectng others and hiding distasteful facts from the "innocent" and am sorry i did. you are the important person here, not everybody else. seems common to put others ahead of ourselves (us victims) for a long time , eventually you will discover that those you are shielding and protecting the most are often the most guilty or accomplices to what took place and know far more than you realize. many people wish you would just shut up and not reveal too much, and we comply, too late finding out those are the people who are trying to hide similar crimes aginst children they have participated in
ReplyDeleteI don't know if you'll see this reply, as it's rather...late...but I haven't abandoned this yet. Just taken a...long break? For a time, I'll admit, I went back to trying to forget all about this and repress it. I guess I hadn't learned that doesn't work... Thank you for your comment, but sadly, I will still protect those who are innocent of blame to spare them the pain, even if it means the guilty do not suffer for it. I'm sorry, I'm just not strong enough to face it.
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